Lenin (yes, that Lenin) said, “There are decades where nothing happens; and there are weeks where decades happen.” Having just experienced the truth of that (and still am for that matter), I wanted to catch you up. Details may be vague as some things are very personal, and while I want to write about them, this isn’t the time.
Short version is that I packed up, picked up, and hiked my happy self into a bad spot, mentally. One of those damnable algorithms that drives all social and social-adjacent media on the Internet triggered it. I was obsessing about things that I had buried rather than processed. While buried, those things had marinated into a nasty stew of resentment and hate.
But…
I realized I was spiraling, and I pulled myself out of it with room to spare. Better yet, it’s hopefully let me put the unpleasant events of decades past behind me.
I’ve also fought a pitched battle with the migraines and my physical health. I expect many of the migraines were stress-induced. Whoda figured? However, my neurologist has made some big changes to my prevention regimen, and so far it seems to be working. Physically, my PCP has discovered that I am drastically low on testosterone. We’re working on that. It’s something that can cause a myriad of problems, many of which I have. I’m crossing my fingers, but early results are promising.
So there we are. Hopefully, I’ll be back writing regularly soon. But you’ll have to split me with all the crap around here that’s wanting attention, from the RV to the grandkids. 🙂
I have kept checking in. I was beginning to worry that something had happened. I deal with some of the same issues as well, including the drastically low testosterone levels. I have to give myself twice a week injections for that one, Joy! Hang in there.
Wow, glad to hear you’re doing better. I kept checking here also, hoping nothing catastrophic happened. Please keep up with whatever you need to stay on an even keel. Outside world, even old mistakes, don’t matter as much as here-and-now, and your family.
If you’re of the mind, prayer and quiet time helps. I often prefer my church when it’s empty, just me and the Lord.
Welcome back, happy-self!!!
Great job catching the spiral and and an extra large bouquet for being persistent in chasing down the cause.